I can't sleep for nuts.

Ok, I just can't bottle it up. I need to let it out. I hate it when I can't sleep. I tend to think too much. and nothing good usually comes with it when I think too much. And it's getting colder as days go by. Ok that has nothing to do with anything but what the hell.

Life decisions have been thrown into my face lately. I really despise this "Your decisions affect your life" shit. I'm so fickle minded it's not even funny. I admit.I am fickle-minded. You can ask me one day if I'm doing/going for something, I might say no.. the next thing you know, you will see me there. Ask me lots of times and i would (most of the time) change my answer. Usually the decisions aren't made up till the very last minute. No, make that seconds. I don't know where i'd be in 10 years from now. Ask me again in 9 years..11 months..30 days...23 hours, 59minutes time. Will I have enough money to support my family? I do hope so.

Well.. it's not only me. Probably most people make decision only to change them ever so often. I think our brains aren't capable of making firm decisions.

I guess i'm just fickle.. I'm entitled to be..

So far the "taking things as each day goes by" is working fine, but sometimes it doesn't. Goddammit, if only life was simpler.

Karma always, and i mean ALWAYS return to bite me in the ass. HARD.

Someone asked me if I'm selfish. I think i am, sometimes. It really depends on whom I'm dealing with. I'm VERY biased with people. If I don't like a person at first sight, you can be the nicest dude on Earth and I still won't like you. Usually my instincts are correct, but occasionally they're wrong. Especially when they come up to u and they introduce themselves and suddenly it's alright to hang out with you. I have excellent perception skills and am usually 95% sure with whatever i see. But I guess it depends on who the other person is. I treat people how they treat me. which is the other way round of what i should be doing. I should treat people how I want people to treat me. But sometimes you can't help but reciprocate in what people do to you.

And I'm so used to calling the shots in my life. I do whatever I want, whenever I want. I just hate it when outside influences interfere with this.

I think I just need to sleep. Crankiness is creeping in.

On a brighter note, So Nyuh Shi Dae released their latest MV today. Seriously 9 girls acting cute is just too much to handle. T__T

And what's with the bangs wei. No matter what, bangs just can't make it. Seriously.

For those fans of Final Fantasy, check this out. It's a fan made video of the FF girls, Yuna, Rikku, Tifa, Rinoa and Arieth (in order of appearance) kicking some DoA girls butt. Damn cool vid if u're fan. If you're not a fan, it wouldn't hurt to see 8 girls kicking each other butt for 15minutes eh =p



Ok, another thing I hate. These damn stomach aches. I've been to the toilet at least 5 times already today. And I've been eating the same food my friends have been eating and they're fine. My colon giving me trouble la now issit. I don't smoke, I don't drink and I don't do drugs, so I dunno what's its problem with me. =( Ok I promise not to eat anymore Indomee. Serious.

I dun wanna study anymore. And I don't wanna start working yet either. I hate being bored and i hate it when I'm busy. I don't know what I want. I dun wanna start ranting on fickle-mindedness again. Ugh. A teenager's life really is fascinating. But I'm old enough to vote now. I'm not a teen anymore. Grow up, Yong Hsin. Grow up.

My life goals are pretty simple. Meet the entire SMTown crew and visit Old Trafford. Then I'll die a happy man. Please help me fulfil my dreams =) Glory glory ManUtd.

Seriously my mid semester break came too early. Now we have 8 weeks of crap to endure before the finals. Abit the smart right you, Monash. The holidays used to be in week 8. The break SHOULD come when our brain is about to burst and tadaaa the break is here. not when we're still going wheeeee-ing and the break is here for more wheeeeeeeeee-ing. And oh yea, I went to some enchanted maze where apparently it's fun to get lost in it and some historical place called Sorrento. The weather during that day is the same as my mood. Gloomy.

The amount of PhD papers that I have to read for my research is insane. Insane i tell you, INSANEEE. 90% of the sentences are like "wtf?!" kinda sentences. I swear. Let me show u an example.

"The dimensionless predictions of the constitutive models are parameterized solely when finite extensibility becomes important."

They're all in English but i have no idea what it means. Till now. Yay.

Wouldn't something like this be better?

"All those years i just wanted her to see me, and..appreciate me and maybe..love me. and now that i have it even if it's for the wrong reasons, it's hard to let it go, you know?" - Brooke Davis (2008)

How true Brooke. how true.

Sorry for all the grouchiness. If you wanna read funnier posts go read my sister the bimbo's blog.
Truly a bimbo.

Wondering what set me off? I just found out that there's no Samsung in Melbourne =(

This is probably only 10% of the things kept inside. Trust me, you don't wanna hear the rest.

Ok. Thank you for listening.

*bows*

Seriously if only I could write this much for my research proposal. And you bloggers on my list. Seriousslyyy.. blog..something. Anything.

I need sleep? Yea, I think I do. Yea, in the end of my holidays. First day of class tomorrow. 10am class. I'm loving it. Oh wait I need to read 60 more slides. Best way to fall asleep is to study. I swear to god. And oh wow it's alright bright out.

*thumbs up*